I remember how frustrating it was.
For one year and ten months, I almost begged for anyone, someone to give me a job. Any job that puts my degree into use and provides me money every month.
And hallelujah, someone finally gave me one. Then another one. While it feels rewarding to help people, at the end of the day, I also have a life to sustain and a future to consider. Don't get me wrong, I am and will always be grateful but financially speaking, it was and it will never be enough. And I've had enough, too.
When I decided to try my luck in Australia, I prepared myself for heaps of rejection. I know that I would have to toughen up even more because I would be living in a place where people are different from those in my country. I know that I would have to compete with the locals here. I would have to show and prove that this little woman deserves a job in a country that was foreign to her. Going here was also a make or break move for me: either I will really pursue this in the long haul or I will pursue the path I have always dreamed of. So I vowed to myself that I am not going back home empty-handed. No. Freakin'. Way.
To my great surprise, the very first place where I submitted my resume to hired me ASAP. Then I moved to Sydney and I immediately got a job, too. I believe this was God's way of telling me that I made the right decision in leaving. Me and Philippines? We're not really meant for each other, I believe. I used to feel a tad guilty though in leaving my own country for a brighter future. However, on second thought, I don't think my own country needed me anyway. There were too many of us and very few jobs. Besides, if I stayed, I think I'll go crazy -- and I'm already bat-shit crazy, so that's not pretty. Just kidding. :p
And now, I have two job offers. And another interview. Kalma lang kayo, guys. Nakakaloka at nakakastress pala ang ganito! Hahaha! But thank you, Lord, ha? For giving me opportunities and options. For letting me know that I am actually good at what I do and I am good enough to be hired. Yung hindi ko na kailangan ipagsiksikan ang sarili ko just to get a job. Now I don't know if this is His sign na I should stay -- I hope not! I'd like to think pang-fashion school ko nga yan (Sometimes, I feel bad when I say this. Other people want and would love to have my job and I only consider it as my day job. However, just to be clear, I don't take my job for granted. I make sure that with everything I do, I do it damn well. Sure, there are days when I like it, there are days when I loathe it. But I believe na mas iba kasi kapag passion mo e. Anyway, most people don't get it so basta, yun na yun. I really don't have to explain myself.). :) Whatever the real reason or purpose is, it's for me to find out later on. But right now, this is enough for me.