Dear Jana,
You haven’t realized that you’ve been training in Jose Reyes for almost a month already (Whew, 5 months to go. Haha!)! But then as days pass by, you seem to lack motivation already. Not that you do not enjoy what you do but it seems to drain you already. The routine work and daily stress drains you. You do and endure all of these all for the sake of ‘experience’ to be placed in your resume so you can land a job outside the country. And as days drag you by, you begin to ask yourself.
“Are you really up for this?”
“ How long will you last?”
“ Is this what you really want?”
“Is this who you want to be in the future?”
And let’s not forget to include in the stress that you’re feeling the frustrating ‘system’ in the government hospital. ‘Things’ don’t have to be that way just because it is a government hospital. In case they forgot, a lot of people are relying for their inexpensive service -- inexpensive yet with QUALITY. There’s no one to blame, I guess. You cannot point your fingers to the government for the lack of funds for it is entirely and completely pointless and there’s nothing you can do about it anymore. You cannot point your fingers to the health care providers as well. But you can point out or enlighten them and even yourself as well (Yes, including yourself, of course.) the real essence of your profession. Lord knows how stressful and hard it is to work in an environment like that, wherein materials and machines are lacking. But no matter how hard and stressful it gets, you should always keep in mind your role – your role to help and be of service to the people who needs us. That’s what you ought to do and you should do, right? And that’s the vow you are going to live by since you passed your respective board exams until you retire. I wish for you and the rest of the health care providers, regardless of the workplace you have, be it in a private or public hospital, to be more compassionate and patient and be more understanding.
