Disclaimer: I’m not a slut nor did I pretended to be as a favour for other people. :D
So being the loser that I am, I was able to watch just recently the movie, ‘Easy A.’ If you have watched the movie, you know the story. If you haven’t, well, I suggest you should. Now! :)
See the thing is, it is a funny movie. Yet I don’t know why I just found myself wiping tears falling down my cheeks in some parts of the movie, specifically in the middle towards the end. It’s not tears out of too much laughing. Don’t get me wrong, I laughed in the movie but yeah, it made me cry at the same time.
Why?
For the simple reason that I can relate to Olive. We don't have the same story though but I exactly know how it feels to be judged wrongly, to hear people say things about you, to be looked upon by the people around you like ‘that’ ('that' doesn't mean slut in my case, as I've said earlier). In Olive's case, she did it on purpose and not really realizing the consequences while in my case, I didn’t do anything. And if ever I did, I did not do it on purpose. It’s just that people around me in high school were very highly judgmental. It's normal for people to have impressions on someone, but you can't totally rely on those impressions unless you know the person, much worse if you based your impressions on hearsays and spread stories based on your impressions.
So to make it simple, I was misinterpreted and misjudged head-to toe. It totally affected me. I felt like something was wrong with me for people to think of me that way when I actually didn’t do anything. I cried buckets, I read a lot of self-help articles and then one day, thank God for that day, it hit me. I realized that I should just let it go and just don’t care because first, I don’t owe anybody an explanation and I prefer proving to people what I can do rather than proving to people who I really am. I can’t control how they thought of me. They didn’t know me well and everyone has gotta say about everybody so why bother? All I know is that I didn’t do anything wrong and it wasn’t my problem if they thought of me in whatever way they wanted. I had (and still have) people who knew me well and they were worth my attention. 
Second, I can’t be bothered all the time by what I hear they say about me or think of me. I can’t revolve my life to those people so I let them say what they wanted, I got tired of them all anyway.
And lastly, I wasn’t born to please anybody. Those who matter wouldn’t mind and those who mind does not matter.
The only thing that I did was held my head high and give no effin damn. :D
But at some point, I realized that it was also a good thing that happened because I was able to filter the people around me, made me knew who my friends were and who weren’t, made me stronger and transparent. I became immune to those people eventually. Then one sunny day, the talking and back-lashing stopped and we had come into good terms little by little. And who would have thought that some of those people even became my friends later on? One of life's ironies. Haha.
And no, I haven’t met my Todd at the end of it all. Well, I met Todd somewhere in the middle but you see, he is not really the “Todd” who stuck with me till the end. But I’m still thankful because at that point, he’s the only guy (aside from my guy friends) who really bothered, if you know what I mean. Haha. So we’ll see. I’ll keep you posted on who will be my own version of Todd who will stick with me till the end, who will carry his speakers below my window and who will borrow his neighbor’s lawnmower for me, who will make me stand in two cities at the same time and who will dance with me under the moonlight, who will make my feet raise when he kiss me, and etc. Haha. :D. And when that happens, I'll have my own production number at the end as well. Lady Gaga-like. HAHAHA!
Speaking of which, I was so curious of that John Cusack movie that I want to watch it. I'll search and download it! :)
Be more concerned with your character than your reputation because your character is what you really are while you reputation is merely what others think you are.
I will never be good enough for everybody. But this is for sure, I am the best for someone who really appreciates me.