It isn't easy. Nobody said it is, in the first place. You have to make a choice. Stop playing safe because, newsflash sir, it sucks. It sucks for you and for the people around you. Stop being a stuck-up and decide on your own because you have to make a choice here. There will always be two sides and life is about making choices. MAKE A CHOICE THEN DEAL WITH IT. demmet.
it is true (a cliche, actually) that men, at some point or thought or action and somehow, are the same and they only come in different packages. some with big ego. some with more decency and politeness. some with full of crap. some with more intimate imprint. IT'S AN ENDLESS VARIETY.
but you know what, i thought that you were somehow different than them. that you were more 'level-upped'. but boy, i was wrong. you were exactly like the low and pathetic type of your kind! you have no balls to match your manhood. you have no guts. you don't have the courage to stand up for your own decisions. you don't even know how to decide actually! from what i see, you decide solely on your aggression, on your impulse, which for a man like you is totally immature and irresponsible. love isn't a game that you decide solely on impulse or what you feel like doing. it shouldn't even be based on strategies. this isn't love surprises or gifts that we are talking about, it's her feelings, damn you! you chose to be safe and to stay safe. what the hell was that?! you didn't even chose her or to be with her, she chose to be with you and that's why you are sticking with her. it's not even hers to decide upon, it's up to you because you are the guy! by now, you know very well how she feels about you but how about you, do you really know how you feel about her? oh darn, i don't even want to look at you, you pathetic scumbag! i mean what i said to you last night. one more fucked up thought, i will never dare think twice about landing my hand straight to your cheek. i trusted you to take care of my friend because i thought, I THOUGHT YOU WERE A GOOD MAN. and obviously, you weren't.