Need Vs. Want

In most cases, especially in relationships, you will only get 80% of
what you NEED and you will hardly get the other 20% that you WANT in your
relationship.


There is always another person (man or woman) that you will meet and
that will offer you the other 20% which is lacking in your relationship that you WANT.

And believe me, 20% looks really good when you are not getting it at all in your current relationship.

But the problem is that you will always be tempted to leave that good 80% that you know you have, thinking that you will get something better with the other 20% that you WANT

But as reality has proven, in most cases, you will always end up with having the 20% that you WANT and loosing the 80% that you really NEED and that you already had.


Be careful in deciding between what you WANT and NEED in your life.


Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have.
But faithfulness happens when you start thanking God for what you
already have.


- Reposted from Paula Fontanilla. :)

I mean it, I AM FINE! :)

Yes, I swear it on my still-alive-still-breathing body! Haha. :)

After days of thinking it over, I realized that I have nothing to be gloomy and dramatic about. What happened was bound and was supposed to happen. Our story that never actually happened is never bound to happen. I had nothing to lose except for my heart that I took care of for almost four years. I was scared but I was willing to try and I tried. For me, that's enough and I don't regret anything. I might have risked my heart out there so what? At one point, I thought he was worth it and he is. Being worthy does not necessarily equate being together in the end. He made me happy for a while, he made me smile, he brought color into my boring days, he inspired me. He's the only person so far that made me feel that way again. I may not have his word that "It is you" or "It had always been you" but I don't care. Not anymore. The truth of the matter is, at that point of my life, he was there. Not necessarily as a lover but as a friend. And I thank him for that. I thank him because I gained a friend one way or another.

Yes, I was hurt. But it's no one's fault and no one's to blame. I have always liked him ever since and I just fell. Too bad, I fell for him. Don't take me wrong, I didn't regret that. It's just that unfortunately, my heart chose to land on someone who can't love me back the way that I do or wished him to. Sabi nga ni Zoe, "He has his own damsel to save."

Ganun talaga... :) We're not meant to be, although it feels like we are, given how 'small' the world is for the both of us... According to Jolo nga, "Coincidences. They have this way of lulling you into a state of promise wherein you think, 'Hey maybe this is a sign'."

So there, I am not bitter and I am very and absolutely fine! :) But after this drama which I believe he knew about (?), I believe our friendship will be a work in progress... I suppose. I hope.

And just when my love affair closed, a worthwhile activity opened! Yesterday while I was with a friend (I'll disclose the details regarding this friend on the latter part), my mom texted me that I got a slot for training at Jose Reyes Memorial Medical Center! HOMAYGAD. God, you are the best! You work your miracles and blessings fast, huh? So we went there this morning to pay for my training (Yeah, we paid and I will not get paid. This is not a job, just for the sake of 'experience' so I can fly away after a year if I want to.) and I'll start on February 15!!! AHHHHHHH! :)

So there goes my silver lining! :) Gee, THANK YOU LORD! :)And oh, I would have wanted to tell him the news because he used to ask me about this almost all the time, but it is pointless for me to share my good news to you, isn't it? Oh, I love you God! You define good blessing in good timing! :)

Basta ayun, I don't care anymore. I don't care about him, her, them. I don't care for him the way I used to, tamang paki na lang. I'm hoping and praying for better days. And good things to come his way pa rin. :) HAPPY THOUGHTS and GOOD VIBES. :)


"If it's not getting better, that doesn't mean it's getting worse at all. Move. Keep up the faith."


And I mentioned about my friend earlier, right? Well, my friend, from way back elementary and whom I haven't seen or talked to for 10 years, and I bonded yesterday! We met at Midtown, sat down and talked at Starbucks and a little windowshopping on the side. :) She even gave me a Christmas gift and a letter! I was surprised and I loved it! :) I missed her. :) We had a lot of catching up to do so I'm looking forward for our next meet-up! :)

The End. :'(

I never thought that this would be the day, the day when it's all over. Parang kagabi lang gusto ko nang malaman kung ano na ba ang real deal tapos chenen, isang text lang ni Bobbie few hours ago at tapos na ang lahat. With her text, alam ko nang bad news e. My heart was racing and palpitating at nanginginig na ako sa nerbyos. But I knew I had to hear it kahit malakas na ang kutob ko kung ano yun, alam kong masasaktan na ako once she utter those next words but I really had to hear it nang matapos na...

Hearing what the bad news was, whew, I just didn't know what to react exactly.

I guess a part of me was a little or partly surprised because deep in my heart, oo, umasa ako. Kala ko merong US na mangyayari pero wala. Since day 1 naman ata umasa na ako e. Mas lalo na nung I was able to know him little by little with the nightly YM conversations. I didn't realize that he already occupied that special place in my heart na ready umopen ng bonggang-bongga pag darating siya. Siya kasi talaga yung gusto ko e pero syempre, di ko naman ipipilit ang sarili ko diba? Sorry if I sound pathetic, wala pa ako sa rational state ko.

A part of me wanted to breakdown and cry but my mom and brother was just seating across me so I had to hold back the tears. Ang sakit. Yeah, well, I had my fair share of shed tears kanina. It's gonna flood once I break the news to my friends. I badly need my friends.

A part of me was already relieved that I don't have to wait for him anymore. Na wala nang "To be Continued" o "Abangan ang susunod na Kabanata." Pero ang sakit talaga. Kasi akala ko kahit papano something will happen pero as I've said to him nung Christmas, at paninindigan ko yun, "I'd rather lose you as my special someone than as a friend." Pero syempre once that news hits you, you really can't help but be sad and hurt.

In fact, I don't exactly know what to feel right now pero I'm crying while I'm typing this.

It's all gone. The wishful thinking. The wondering. The waiting. The kilig feeling. The smile he was able to put back to my face again. The happiness he gave me. It's good and bad at the same time, isn't it? Verdict has been said. May maganda mang idudulot o idinulot sakin to, at the same time, it is hurting me bad.

Kung iisipin, there was nothing going on between us. I don't know how you call it pero in general, wala lang yun. Wala naman kaming pinanghahawakan. Yun ang masakit dun e, ewan ko kung pinaramdam ba nya or masyado lang ba akong assuming. Pero bottomline, wala talaga. Wala siyang sinabi at wala rin akong sinabi (Until this Christmas.). But I guess we had that connection. Oo, what we had wasn't enough para masabi kong his heart was mine. But what we had, as far as I know, was enough justification kung bakit ako nasasaktan ng ganito. Yung di naman nakakaalam ng real story might think this is a pointless hurt. Oo. Siguro. Pero para sakin, may reason kung bakit masakit... Sana hindi na lang siya naging ganun sakin kung eto lang pala kahahantungan nito. I'm not mad at him or whatsoever. As I've always said in the past entries, I have a lot to be grateful for sa kanya. Sana lang hindi siya naging ganun at hindi naman ako nagpakatanga sa kanya...

After a year and a month, it all boils down to this and it all ends here. I thought you are my prince charming, my knight-in-shining armor. Yeah, I honestly, honestly thought you were. But you weren't. Though you used to call me princess, I'm not the princess you wanted to sweep off after all. I wanted to be that girl but I know you don't. Tama na to, ayaw ko na masaktan so I'm gonna let you go and move on with my life. I am willing to let you go. No more waiting and wondering and holding on. This ends tonight. So Goodbye and thank you so much. :)

I know the words and thoughts here are very crappy. I can't think straight. Whew.

But I'm gonna be fine after all of this. I know I will be. I should be...

Huh?

Do I have the ability to make someone smile and/or happy?
Can I make someone smile and/or happy?


Oh gosh. I can't believe I am asking this to myself. Likewise, I can't even believe that I am actually bothered! In fact, I shouldn't care about that, right? I shouldn't care whom he chooses between someone who makes him smile and someone who makes him happy. But how come it feels like I have to know where I stand in those two places: someone that makes him smile or someone that makes him happy. Yeah, well, I don't even know if I actually have a spot. Should I call myself desperate or pathetic? No, DESPERATELY AND PATHETICALLY EXPECTING is the term! Harsh to myself much? Haha.


Snap out of it!
(I had seen this coming. I am prepared for this, I just wasn't expecting to learn about that NOW.)

Me, in an excerpt.

-->... Experiences in my life for the past 21 years that I am living in this world made me stronger and wiser. I know it was nothing compared to other people’s experiences but it helped me mature little by little. It helped me to become a better person and it will help me overcome more trials ahead of me. I know I had only seen a tiny part of this world, of this reality. Once I get out there into the “real world”, the “real reality” and the “real life” are there waiting for me. I know that something great is laid for me somewhere along my journey. I am not the best daughter there is. I may not be the best friend one can ever have. I wasn’t the smartest student. I am not an entirely good person and I am not the worst person either. But I know and I can definitely attest that I am somebody and I can be a better somebody. I am a girl whose superficiality should be looked past upon. I am a girl whose capabilities should never be underestimated. And I am a girl who proved and is still proving that I am better than what everyone initially judged me of, that I am more that what meets the eye and that I can go beyond what is expected of me.
- submitted together with my resume and credentials for NCMH. :)

Golden Globe! :)

Before you say anything else, I'm not going to discuss here who won, who didn't or who should have won in the Golden Globe Awards. But rather, I'm going to talk about what excites me during Red Carpet Events like this one -- FASHION! :)

I went online at 9am this morning and the show had started already! Thanks to Twitter because they already announced 2 winners already (Spoiler much? Haha. I should have known better to not open my Twitter account anyway! Haha.)! So while I was busy re-tweeting the winners and semi-watching and semi-listening on TV, I bothered and made an effort to see some pictures of the stars in their fabulous designer dresses or suits!

These are the ones that caught my attention. I categorized them actually. Haha.

SORRY, I WAS BIASED.

Two words: Old (Okay, that sounds harsh. I'm sorry.) yet Still HOT! I wish to be like that when I get older. :) I am not a fan Lisa Edelstein's silver dress (but she looked sexy!), I prefer Felicity Huffman's dress.

DUH, OBVIOUSLY!

FAVORITE! :)

And there is, I'M CONFUSED (Either I am totally biased or they are just plainly gorgeous no matter what! I can't decide.):

As for the last picture on this set, Sam Worthington confuses me. I don't know where to look: him or her. Haha.

For our finale, The What-Were-You-Thinking?!

ENOUGH SAID.

Well, you read what I have to say. Please be free to disagree or agree with the categories that I made. :)

And I am just happy that UP, Avatar, Glee, Robert Downey won! And you really have to give that award to James Cameron, HE OWNS THAT! :)

Darn, I have to see Sherlock Holmes, 500 Days of Summer (YEAH, LOSER MUCH! Blame it on the twice-postponed DVD marathon with my BFF.) and Julie and Julia soon!!! SOON!

I think my mom loves my friends! :)

One Friday afternoon, my Mom and I were talking over lunch. It was a conversation about random things. I don't know how we got into that topic, about me and Lee talking in a cab about our life. (Yeah, the buhay-buhay talk.)

*Sorry Lee but nakwento ko kay Mama yung drama mode nyo ni Tita (Won't elaborate further though). Dun kasi nagsimula yung buhay-buhay talk natin e. Hehe.*

Then from that story, napa-jump kami tungkol sa mga future plans. Since I am talking about me and my friends, my plans, my friends' plans and OUR plans, namention ni Mama ang linyang ito:

"Actually, nagtanong nga si Atty. Cy sa akin na, 'Buti si Ja hindi nag-boboyfriend-boyfriend. Parang wala sa isip nya yun."

*MAAA. Kung alam mo lang! Haha. No, but seriously... Gusto ko naaa. Hahaha! Pero career muna. At yung mga chorva ko dati e wala lang yun, though counted siya e di naman siya ganun ka-dibdiban. HAHAHA.*

Then she replied daw, "Ang sabi ko, 'EH CLOSE KASI SILA NG MGA BARKADA NIYA. MASAYA SIYA SA BARKADA NIYA. DI RIN KASI YUN YUNG FOCUS NG MGA KAIBIGAN NIYA."

And you can all fill in the rest of the blanks for yourselves, my friends. :) Napaisip din ako actually e. Paminsan-minsan ko nang binitiwan ang mga salitang, "Dahil ata sa'yo/sa inyo/sa kanila kaya hindi pa ako nagkakaboyfriend!" Pero referring to my boy friends. It was a superficial sentence with a shallow meaning. It is what it is. No underlying meaning. But then, hearing my Mom's statement, it made me think. Yung linyang paminsan-minsan ko nang binitiwan does not only refer to my boy friends but to all my friends, be it from elementary, high school or college.

It is true that I have very close friends, as in CLOSE. TIGHT. Yung tipong sa sobrang close namin e pati ibang parte ng buhay nila (Syempre, hindi yung 'pang-amin' na kwento!) e nakekwento ko kay Mama so eventually she has somewhat a 'preview' of who my friends really are. With that statement, I believe my Mom, kahit alis kami ng alis ng friends ko, is proud and happy that I have found and gained friends like them. I believe she trusts my friends too. I also believe that she is proud of my friends too, be it the way they were raised by their parents or their personal accomplishments. And kung iisipin, bilang sa daliri namin yung mga friends ko who are in a relationship. And though these few people are in a relationship, di naman sila nakakalimot. In fact, they serve somewhat a 'role model' for us because in fairness to them, they have good romantic relationship with their partners. And whenever we hangout and talk, di lang naman puro chismis at gaguhan ang usapan namin, we talk about life and our plans. Kinekwento ko kay Mama yung mga plano-plano natin sa buhay-buhay, be it personal plan or goal or group plan or goal. May times na natatawa at natutuwa siya sa mga grandiose plans natin, I believe nacu-cutan siya sa tayog ng pangarap natin? Haha. Boasting aside, one cannot hide the fact that me and my friends are goal-oriented and career-focused. May kalokohan or bisyo man ang isa sa amin, it still wouldn't be enough for him or her to be considered na BI sa buhay ko at para sabihan ako ng Nanay ko na lumayo sa kanila.

Respect, loyalty and love reign in the friendship we have. :) I love you friends and I believe my Mom loves you guys too! :)

Post-Review: Avatar

74. I will keep track of my accomplished tasks by blogging it! :)

It's almost a week late but what the heck. Haha.

I accomplished Number 11 in my Day Zero Project List:

11. I will watch a movie in 3D!

Yeah, well, I don't know if IMAX and 3D are two different things but I believe they are somehow (?) so I sort of accomplished it anyway.


Vinci, Bobbie, Lee, Joanne, Chai and I watched Avatar last Monday. It was an EXCELLENT and AWESOME film! James Cameron, for being the writer and the director, he just rocks! BOW. Honestly, when I first saw it's trailer way back early October if I'm not mistaken, It didn't caught my attention. I don't know why, I thought it was all about alien world and aliens bore me. It was my brother who wanted to watch it but I told him that it seemed uninteresting (Yeah, eventually, I took back what I said. Haha.) Since it was a film by James Cameron, it made me think twice. Then I heard and read movie reviews, I saw a better trailer and that was it. I wanted to watch it. My friends wanted to watch it as well so off we went to Mall of Asia to catch it on IMAX.


3 Hour movie? So what. I was never bored at the movie (Yeah, well, there was a part where I unintentionally fell asleep. The scene where the military entered the Avatar world and started destroying it. I don't know why I fell asleep! Darn. I tried opening my eyes and all I saw was the fire in the scene then my eyes eventually closed slowly. I didn't miss much though, I know it.). Very good plot and story. I mean, who else can think of that kind of story? I know I can't (Yeah, well, I'm not that imaginative anyway.)! Haha. And though the story revolved about our world and the world beyond ours in the future, it has a sense of 'now'. At least that's how I see it. I mean, it reflects our world today, be it subtly or very evidently. Just look at how both powerful and poor countries are today. People from poor countries or from the indigenous community struggle to survive or make the most of whatever they have and there are these people who think they are superior over them that they take advantage of them or show disrespect to them in any form possible and they just won't give way or compromise! And notice the part in the movie that deals with the environmental aspect? It's very evident now. Even in our country. These landowners or engineers or whoever they are, they want to destroy some of our country's natural resources, some preserved lands. For what? For the sake of building subdivisions, buildings. Well hello, too commercialized world. And we are experiencing energy crisis, and climate change aren't we? It was also shown in the movie how the military took desperate measures to solve that energy crisis by raiding the Avatar world for that mineral but it eventually lead to the destruction of their world due to the resistance of the Na'vi. I hope that though we have that same problem, finding solutions for the problem wouldn't lead to drastic actions. I also admired how spirituality or one's faith was represented in the movie. It sends out a good message that despite of all that is happening around us, there is one Person up there who will never leave us. :)

And to all those who were able to watch the movie, you gotta applaud the visual effects! SUPERB! :) Thanks to power of technology for the very visually satisfying movie and the cinematic viewing experience. :)

If only that 'Avatar Program' is real, not only that it is way too cool and plainly out of this world but I believe that entering the Avatar world through your consciousness would be magical... :)

I think I’m moving but I go nowhere.

It had been 15 days since 2010 started and it had been 15 days that I am still bumming around! Well, not totally. Aside from hanging out with my friends, I already started processing my NCLEX 3 days ago and I gave Keith my application form for NCMH (I haven’t finished my autobiography though. Okay, I know. I’m gonna finish it later! :p). I also searched for universities that offer Master’s Degree in Nursing and looked over their program/course, subjects and application requirements. Well, if I am not mistaken, there are no other universities in Manila aside from these two – UERM and UST -- that offers Master’s Degree in Nursing. Yeah, those were the only professionally-related act that I did for the past 15 days! Boohoo. And it hit me hard! I was like, “Come on! I had been a bum since June 8! It’s about time to have my plans materialized and to get my ass movin’ BIG TIME!”

I promised to myself that I will rock my 2010 and just like 2009, I will try to make 2010 MY year. 6 months of rest and relaxation was already enough. Enough rejuvenation and enough to make my mind idle. I need to be tired again! Haha.

As I look back the past 6 months of my life, I felt I did almost nothing!

• I waited for the results of the Board Exam to be released for almost one month and a half.
• I had myself registered as a nurse in PRC and processed my license, SSS, NBI, certification of passing, credentials. The worst part in processing in PRC? It’s not the long lines or the slow poke employees. It’s the waiting and the coming to and fro! I have to wait because processing is in alphabetical order and the first letter of my surname belongs to the lower half of the alphabet! I have to come back on this date to do this, on that date to do that. I even have to wait for my license for a month! Remembering it now, I realized that it took me 4 trips to PRC and 3 months to accomplish all of these!
• I trained at Red Cross so I can be authorized/licensed in giving Basic Life Support and First Aid. (Well, that was SOMETHING! :p)
• After I finally received my license, I had tried applying as a staff nurse for hospitals but to no avail, I am still unemployed up to this moment. I even tried applying as a volunteer or trainee but since the Philippines are overflowing with nurses, we just have to wait for THE call. And waiting sucks! My mom is trying to ‘work’ my papers out just so I can have a job or even training. In our world, it’s not where you came from, it’s who you know.

So while opportunities for nurses here in the Philippines are elusive, I took this time to really think about my other options and to ponder on what should I do next. I know I can’t waste another six months. I’m gonna die! Haha.

While I am still fabulously unemployed, I decided to take my NCLEX. I didn’t want to take it at first but then, what the heck, I should go take it. I won’t lose anything anyway. So I started processing my papers already and again, I have to wait. I have to wait for the requirements/papers I requested from my school. I have to wait for the fingerprint card I requested from the Board of Registered Nurses in California to be mailed to me. I have to mail those documents to California so they can double check my credentials and background, etc etc. I have to wait for my eligibility to take the test. So while I wait for that ‘long wait’ to be over, I have to study for my exam! I cannot, will not and should not fail! Aside from the long processing, the exam itself is expensive! So I guess I just have to self-study after all… Review centers are also expensive! And here comes the hard part: the I-don’t-know-how-to-study-anymore-but-I-need-to-study-all-over again! Haha.

And here comes the hardest moment. The moment where I should finally decide whether I should enter Medical School or take my Master’s Degree then take Bachelor’s Degree in Fashion in few years time. I am still undecided as to where my heart really is. Once I have finally decided over this seemingly endless dilemma, I know there’s no turning back. I HOPE that I will not look back over that option ever again. Oh God, help me decide… Direct me to what Your will for me is.

Yes, I really need to get down serious and do more worthwhile things. No more bumming around!

I need and have to pass that exam.

I need and have to study.

I need and have to take more Continuing Education.

And I need and have to stop linking “Nothing To Do” with “Internet-babad” (Specifically, Facebook-ing, Tweet-ing, YM-ing.) SERIOUSLY. SERIOUSLY! Haha.

Good Vibes 2010. GOOD VIBES!

HAPPY AND FABULOUS NEW YEAR EVERYONE! :)

It's my first entry for this year! :) And my first entry with a new blog address! :) Yeah, I thought of changing it because, as I said to my friends, the former blog address lost it's meaning to me. It sounded sad so I thought of changing it to a more girly one. Haha.

So I've made my own personal Day Zero Project. Of course, that list is a secret! :) Thanks to Liana for that idea. :)

For this year, I don't want or intend to promise anything. I just want my 2010 to be a blast, to be happy, to be full of love and to be another year of accomplishment. And that Day Zero List of mine will be helpful because it's my ticket to make my 2010 fun! I included there things I haven't done yet so it's gonna be exciting! :) I also included things I planned to do after my board exam last year but I wasn't able to (I don't know why I wasn't able to do them, to think I had 6 months of being a bum?!). I said earlier that my list was a secret, right? Haha. Okay, that will be enough. :)

I know my entry title is all about 'Good Vibes' but this part isn't all about good vibes. But I just have to let this off my system (medyo matagal na rin to) so as to achieve 'Good Vibes', right?

Okay, I can't say I am a good friend but I try to be. In my effort to help a friend, you haven't noticed that I am being caught in between which isn't supposed to be because I am not involved here. I was just trying to help. It's hard to keep up and say something when you don't know what they exactly did and what exactly happened but upon hearing whatever those actions or events were, you just knack your brain and sensible mind out to understand it. Both of you are my close friends and due to my inevitable position of somehow being the sole link to each other, naiipit na ako. Ayokong may may masaktan sa inyo as much as possible pero ang hirap kasi I am afraid that I might say something I should not have, I might say something that might lead to another thought bubble, I might say something that might cross that line. I am just a friend, I have no right to really meddle into your own personal affairs. The truth is, it's an emotional overload to me already. Mali na ma-carried away ako with the situation but being in the middle, di ko naiwasan. I know may iba pang nakakaalam pero kasi ang point ko, care to tell me what is really going on because since that night, bits and pieces lang ang alam ko. I don't know what to really say to my other friend. Hanggang sa naubusan na ako ng sasabihin and energy to even attempt to say something. Hindi sa gusto ko isumbat to sayo but I even set aside my love issue at inuna ko yung tulungan kayo and the least thing you could have done was to listen and wait for me to speak. I honestly don't know what's going on and I really had no idea what was really happening tapos bababaan mo ko ng telepono? I set aside this inis I have for you because it's the holiday season and I don't want to be pissed off at issues that does not really involve me. You could have at least thought about me and given me consideration. I know at that point, considering how I felt was the least of your concern pero ako na nga ang nag-eeffort to talk to you about this thing, ayaw mo naman ako replyan. I know you are busy and you don't want to talk about it at that time, I get that. We agreed that we will talk on 2010 pero again, di mo na ako nireplyan. Tapos ngayon na akala ko out na ako sa topic na ito, you'll talk to me about it. I've had enough already. Gaano na ba katagal tong issue na ito? It's not that I don't want to listen or talk, it's just that I want you to notice or to even give a damn that I don't like what's happening, that I don't like being caught in between, that it's draining knowing too much emotional information and I have no one else to talk to about it and I don't like being treated this way because it makes me feel like I am taken for granted.

And as for you my other friend, I appreciate you for trusting me and for sharing this with me. Wala naman akong issue sayo e, sa kanya lang talaga. I don't mind you sharing your feelings and thoughts pero sa totoo lang at ayoko sana sabihin to pero nauubusan na rin ako ng sasabihin or advice sayo. I never asked you to follow any of it pero kasi I was being careful nga na baka may masabi ako na di dapat or yung mga bagay na dapat sa kanya galing e masabi ko pa diba? I hope you understand what I am trying to say. It's not that I don't want to help you. It's just that I somehow know his side and I don't want to be the one laying it out for you (Well, sinabi rin naman nya sayo eventually and you figured it out on your own.) at baka din kasi nga madulas ako or may ma-misinterpret ka sa mga masabi ko. And you being the girl, I totally get how you feel. Comforting a girl is somehow easy for another girl to do pero kung yung girl na yun e alam ang reason kung bakit nagawa nung isa yung ginawa nya, it's kinda tough. Basta yun, nagegets mo naman ang ibig kong sabihin diba? And I hate to say this but gaano na ba katagal tong issue na ito? I just think this should be put to an end para di na kayo parehong mawindang pa nang paulit-ulit.

Regardless all this drama, I still care for the both of you. I just want what's best for the both of you, wag nyo lang sana akong biglain ng sobra-sobra at wag nyo naman akong gawing shock absorber. Wala nga akong ka-ide-idea sa mga nangyayari tapos binombard nyo ako. Yun lang naman ang request ko sana. I just hope this won't get in the way of our friendship and I hope you will still talk to me regarding sa mga life issues nyo, basta wag nyo lang ako bibiglain nga na nasa climax na tayo agad ni hindi ko man lang alam ang start.

Whew, so much for the first entry for the year huh? Haha. ;p Okay, the next entries should all be about happiness (I hope and I wish!)! Haha.