start of something?

12 minutes ago, he gave me his number.

okay, it was already an aggressive move for me to ask for his number. i was tempted and i don't know, i just thought of it. it was like, my impulse was telling me to get it. thank God cham was online and i was able to ask her opinion at kasama ko rin siya mag-isip ng mga casual and subtle ways of asking it.

fret not, as i said, it was already an aggressive move for me to ask for his number but i will not text him. well, i was expecting he will ask for my number when i asked him for his number but he did not. so ano ba, next move kanya naman no! hahaha! maybe he will expect na itetext ko siya pero hindi pala so baka mauna siya. hahaha! muntik lang maging makapal ang mukha ko. tsk.

i am so happy, magka-chat ulit kami kanina although we didn't talk too much because he was busy with his schoolworks. okay lang. i just wanted to talk to him and that short time was enough. :)

shockings.

1. when i woke up, my aunt's watching the television and the news was about Michael Jackson being brought to the hospitalized. he collapsed at home. when paramedics arrived 10 minutes after relatives called, he was not breathing. he was resuscitated in the ambulance. was in a deep coma in the hospital and eventually died. he is 5o years of age and died due to cardiac arrest.

can't say i'm a big, big fan but it was surely surprising. i listen to his songs sometimes and he really is good. :) he makes my booty shake most of the times actually. hindi ko man siya naabutan at the highest peak of his career, but eventually, i learned to appreciate his music with my dad's help. haha. but despite the fame and fortune, i pity him because he lived a lonely life. he did not experience what and how is it to be a child. he was abused. he had psychological problems and issues within himself. he was being scrutinized so bad and misjudged. i hope that we all learn lessons from his personal life. we should learn to listen beyond the lines and be sensitive enough. let's not take away childhood from children. let's try not to judge people too soon and too early and if ever we are, let's prove to them that we are far away from their shitty judgments. :)

AND PLEASE! ENOUGH OF THE ISSUES ABOUT HIM! gosh.

also, farrah fawcett died due to anal cancer that metastasized to her liver. pero nasapawan ang death news niya dahil kay jackson.


2. naputol ang siesta ko dahil sa isang call. someone called me from telecare (i'm not sure if i heard the company name correctly). i was recommended daw. he mentioned a name and he is someone i do not know of! scary. so the guy on the phone asked me if i want to be a call center agent, of course, i said 'no.' and he asked me why (so may ganon pa pala) and i answered, 'i'm not interested, sorry.'

subtle sarcasm, yes. haha. e kasi nabigla ako at wala pa ako sa ulirat ko no! but really, i won't and will not apply in a call center. i-offer na lang nila yun sa mas may kailangan ng job kasi hindi yun ang hinahanap ko na trabaho. :) no offense meant to those who work in call centers. it's a tough job, schedule pa lang e and the patience the work entails is stress itself. but, it's not my thing. hindi naman sa choosy ako, it's not just what i signed up for, you know. my field of study is different from that field, although at some point, they have a similarity. we both deal with people. anyway, it's not the stepping stone that i wanted. so yun, but i felt kinda happy because they were the first one to call and offer me a job. not so bad, either... :)


3. this is it! sis pm-ed me to tell me na may net na sila. SA WAKASSS! hay, miss ko na siyang kausapin... sana naman makapag-usap na nga kami... :)

iiwan mo na ko... :(

-->it was 5th of June, a day before our Nursing Licensure Examination, when he first told me that he is leaving the country. if i'm not mistaken, i am the first person he told to about this. i remember the moment very clearly. i was in a hotel, laying down on bed, when we were talking on the phone. he said it to me in a casual way. i was shocked, of course, and a bit sad but i put aside the feeling becasue i need not to be distracted on my board exams. any form of distraction was the last thing i needed for the 2 coming days.
then earlier this morning, we were texting each other. he was teasing and making kulit of me through text and eventually, i blurted the words out. Ever since that day, kapag name-mention niya ang pag-alis niya, i try to change the topic or nagdadrama-dramahan ako. but kanina nga, ayun nga...


hahaha!kulit b un?d way u do asar and kulit are like d same!haha.oh well, tadtarin mo nko nyan ngaun p lng..hate to say this but ill miss that when you leave me.again.hay.at aminin mo,wlang ako dun.hahaha.feelingera.

Haha.of c0rs.wlang mangaaway & mangungulit sakin dun.mamimis tlga kta.

pucha ka,aga-aga pinapaiyak mo ko.hayop ka.and who would have thought that you’ll miss my ways of BS-ing and pissin you off?hahaha.no norwegian grl cn top that,i bet.haha.subukan mo lng, shet ka.and im beggng you,wg mo naman ako ktmaran pramdaman ha?hay,ill miss u too and more.:c

Di pa nman aq umaalis.hehe.& dnt wori.n0 ones g0na replace u.:)

heaven,time flies fast.nxt thng we knw,u r there at d airport already&me cryng my eyes out.i shld hate u,u knw,mking me cry.haha.hay nko,ayw ko na.itigil n ang usapan n to!we have 6mos to fill pa..bsta s fri ah?:)

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i can’t help but be sad. he is my one and only bestfriend in the entire world. We’ve known each other since 'nene' and 'totoy' days. we’ve been friends for almost 7 years. Career-wise, i want him to leave and grow as a professional, earn million bucks, you know. Friend-wise, i do not want him to leave, of course! I do not want him to leave me again, like what he did back in college, when he promised that we’ll go to the same university...


heaven, what will i do when you're not around anymore? When you are not just a phone call, a jeepney ride or an lrt ride away from me? it was tough when you left me in RM and in 6 months time, it’s gonna be tougher for you will be miles away. I am used to the fact that you are just there, within reach. Kahit pa magkaiba tayo ng university na pinasukan, we kept in touch though it was hard due to our own priorities and our own hectic life that we tried to live and adjust with. tapos ngayon pa na aalis ka e di mas mahirap pa. but i know in my heart that you were always there and will always be there, like what you always tell me. With all my ups and downs, shittyness and bitchyness, laughters and tears, happiness and pain, you were there to listen, to make me smile and to uplift me. with all that is happening in my life, you are the first one, or among the first few people, na sinasabihan ko. you are there to support me in whatever i want to do. you are there to stop me from doing irrational things. you are there to calm me when i'm out of my mind. you are there to be crazy when i want to be crazy. you take care of me like your sister. you piss me off like any normal person. Pag wala ka na, pano na yan? Once you leave, i know some things will change and i have to adjust to them... you know how i hate drastic changes. hay.

-->Sino na lang magtitiyaga sumundo at ihatid ako sa bahay tuwing may lakad with our high school friends?

Sino na lang din mambubuwisit sayo habang nagddrive ka?

Sino na tatawagan ng nanay ko pag umaga na at wala pa ko sa bahay?

Sino na lang magtitiyaga makinig sa mga kwento ko at minsang mga kabalbalang thoughts?

Sino pa magjujudge sa mga boylet ko?

Sino pa magcocomfort sakin when i cry like a baby?

Sino mag-aabot sakin ng panyo?

Sino pa ba ang pwedeng manlibre sakin pag namimiss ako?

Sino pa ba ang pwedeng magstress sakin ng mga bagay-bagay na i refuse to hear?

Sino pa ba pwedeng magtolerate at nakakaintindi ng mood swings ko?

Sa kabagalan ko kumilos, sino na lang magtitiyaga maghintay sakin?

Sino pa ba pwedeng mag-regalo sakin ng self-made pasta?

Sino pang lalaki ang pwede kong molestiyahin at papayag na molestiyahin ko?
sino na lang fashion counsellor mo nyan?

Sino na tatanungin mo kung anong haircut ang bagay sayo?

Sino na kasama ko manlait ng mga tao?

Sino na yayayain ko pag mag-coconcert ang mga favourite artists natin?

Sino na lang bubuwisitin ko pero di pa rin makuhang magalit sakin?
Sino na lang aawayin ko in English?

Sino pa ba pwedeng tumalo sa pagkamalilimutin mo?

Sino na lang paaalahanan ko lagi ng dates kasi ulyanin na?

Sino pa she-sharan ko ng deepest secrets ko?

Sino pa pwedeng makaintindi ng ‘jokes’ natin?

Sino pa pwedeng makaintindi sakin with one look lang or even without saying a word?

sino pa pwedeng maka-gets sakin when i lie?

sino pa pwedeng makabasa ng mind ko?

Sino pa pwedeng makatapos ng sentence ko?

Sino pang pwedeng ka-telebabad ko sa telepono?

Sino na lang magtitiyaga mag-explain ng mga bagay na hindi ko talaga maintindihan or yung mga ayaw ko intindihin?
Sino na kasama ko mag-daydream ng mga lavish things?

Sa kaartehan ko, sino pa ang baliw na pagtatawanan at hindi nabubuwisit sa kaartehan ko?

Sino pa lagi mo pagsasabihan na mag-seatbelt?

Sino na lang ang pinakabobo na pasahero mo na makapal ang mukha umupo sa tabi ng driver’s seat at wala namang alam sa directions?

Sino na lang din ang taga-reply at taga-call mo habang nagddrive ka?

Sino na lang magreregalo sakin na nakakalimutan naman sa bahay?

Sino pa ang papayag pukpukin ko pag natatanga na naman?

sino na lang kasama ko sa Disneyland nyan?

Sino na din kasama ko to take the NMAT?!

*at wala na akong maisip*

Aside from our common friends, i have other friends pa naman. madami. i know and i am fully aware na they also do these things with me, but not in the same intensity as my bestfriend does. Hindi naman sa nagcocompare ako, pero siyempre, kaya ko nga siya bestfriend diba? If there is one person who knows me better than anyone else and even more than i know myself, siya na yun. he knows the why’s, the how’s, my what if’s of my whole persona. Ang mga bagay na hindi ko maintindihan sa sarili ko, i know he understands.

We shared tons of memories together and withour common friends. i'll miss doing things we used to do together once you leave. i know we dreamed of 'grand' things to do together pag mayaman na tayo. which i have no doubt will come true naman. but i will really miss doing the simple and even childish tings with you. we barely have 6 months left and once you leave, hindi na natin magagawa to... gusto ko man sumama sayo, we both know it's impossible for now. pwede ako sumunod, but hindi soon...

if there is one person who will miss you more than you will ever know, that would be me. i hope we will still update each other through emails. and we'll see each other, idk, 3 or 6 months or every year? you are my bestest bestfriend in the entire worls and no distance can come in between the friendship we built since we were 14. a lot of our friends will surely miss you as well... i will always be here for you no matter what. and i know, kahit sang lupalop ka pa ng mundo, you will still be there for me. and i will hold on to your promise that you won't fo what you did to me again. gets mo na yun. iloveyoumuch. :) hug.

ang aga ng pagdadrama ko, diba? haha.

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